Okay so first off I have a link to the new Whitney Houston single Million Dollar Bill, which is the shit for y'all here. I know, I know you are welcome. Here it is:
http://sinternet.com/blast/whitney/whitney.million.blast.html copy it and go to the link if it don't show up here or whatever. It's a good little jam produced by Swizz Beatz and was apparently written by Alicia Keys. Good song.

Now on to other things and et par le facon bonjou mes zamis. So economically things have been kinda crazy. I had a devil of time paying my rent this month and actually had to use some community resources. Hey you do what ya gotta do okay? I aint puttin it down it just is that I am ready for things to get better. This student poverty life is for the birds ya hear. Pou la verite pou des zozos. But at least it is paid. In the meantime I have 3 papaers due in the next two weeks that I have not started on and I am running on very little money and almost no food at home. Yeah things are kinda stressful right now. Yet somehow God always pulls it together for me and for that I am most grateful.
School is well actually in spite of the work I have to do I am loving the process something that was sadly lacking the first time around when I was in college. Oh yes it was much easier than but I hated where I was and most of the student body I despised. It is hard to be an openly Black Gay Man in your late teens and early 20's , who is not the most masculine guy in the world on a campus that out of 15K students only 200 were of African Descent. Right and I don't do the white men... Well not unless like extreme desperation sets in. And then I just tagg them and release them. I know it may seem cruel and heartless but I don't care I don't feel the bekes! Okay I just don't.

So anyways the school thang is working out well. Every step of the way God is guiding my steps and it only he doing that leading because I aim purely doing this whole thang on faith only and solely. Nothing else is guiding my steps but my work ethic and that is paying off. I've gotten all As or Bs nothing lower and for that Jesu merci bonsiegneur. So that is a good thing.

Males, males, males and they are making me crazy!!!! I can't stand this. These men so I am like kinda seeing, well I am seeing or have met or whatever. Both males are handsome and I have had sex with both of them... Yet both of them are I dunno too many things for me. So the first male ignores me until he wants some, I'm sorry that is what he does and I am supposed to be at his command when he comes my way. Fucking Leo bastard! Yeah like all I am is a dick repository for you nigga!? Uhh! The other one I met recently is interesting, he doesn't like that I smoke and I can tell is critical and a bit opinionated. Of course both males seem believe that they have exclusive rights to me. Hello I am not either of your trinket I am a human being. How do some males seem to think they own you just because you let them get some especially when they aggress for it? Right. It is ridiculous and crazy. So here I am with these 2 males. Not knowing what to do about any of it. I mean should I just not even deal? I mean for real I am hating being alone right now. I hate the loneliness. The fact that I sleep alone. I am alone, I mean I could I suppose try and tempt Trumph to my side but for what reason? I mean it would do no good and talking to Trumph is nothing but depressing and slightly irritating these days. I find myself more than tired of his belly aching. I am sorry Trumph but you do kinda whine and it irritates me. I know you can do whatever you wish and you will just get to doing it. I have faith in you just start having it in yourself.

Still life is what it is... I dunno I thought that once I turned 30 life would be easier ha ha! That is not the case but in some ways it is easier, but goodness. I still do not understand males any better.