Friday, January 29, 2010



Salut mes amis...I am feeling at this moment depressed. My money situation this month has been extremely difficult, I had to ask the Erlking to borrow some cash and I dunno I feel bad about that... I actually lost some money. Alot of it I know can you bleive that. I am a klutz and half. That and well I am trying to give him some space because we said we would take things slower and then I just lately have been feeling like...Well okay so I was speaking with a classmate yesterday and he was just like you know doesn't it seem like since we got into school stuff has just gotten so much harder... And I agreed with him. Don't get me wrong I am well aware of the blessings I've been given with this opp...And I do not knock that at all. Mais Mon Dieu this has been a very difficult experience at times. I hate being broke all the time! I hate that I do not yet have a job because if I start working I will totally jeopordize my schooling! I am tired of being that guy who rarely has anything in his pockets. It makes me feel less of un homme. I wish the Erlking was here to just hold me now. And he is not and I feel like crying right now....Aie aie aie.
It just seems like for the right steps forward I take like what 20 backwards. And I feel like that character Corey in the Ski Trip "Every Gay Man's Nightmare"! Yet I have great friends, I have people in my life that I know love me even when I am unlovable, muy parents are all living, I am not ill or sick with naything.... I am survivor of so many things and it could be worse.
I could be living in Port au Prince or Logoane or Jacmel right now. I could be homeless or living in a war zone or a really bad ghetto environment and not the so so one I live in here in Seattle. Still I am just having a moment when I am feeling hopeless. I mean even my problems though perhaps not so great when compared to others are still for me significant at this moment. And I know this will not be forever but Dieu it feels like it. Am I whining because that is not my intent and usually on here I attempt to focus on the positive but this month has seemed like torture for me. I just feel crazy sometimes....
I know I kinda look crazy there don't I with the glowing eyes and all.
I want to be economically secure and working I want it all done right now, this schooling I want to stop being this poverty stricken student. Because for real it does not feel me with pride all the time...I am not having a pity party I am just feeling not so great right now.... Yet I know thiws too shall pass... I just hope it passes soon.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Many individuals tend to be enduring payday loan consumer debt in the country a result of the horrible economic crisis. Along with ailments deteriorating day-after-day, you will find a lot more people tormented by lacking job opportunities. A number of currently have looked to cash loans, in which demand astonishingly big rates of interest along with may result in a fabulous never-ending cycle associated with endless credit debt. There are many who would like to on-line to remove a new payday loan, yet don't know all the measures demanded to do. You must discover how to avoid a payday cash loan immediately to avoid via extremely cutbacks because of the rates. This article provide you with some sort of step-by-step instruction to reduce which usually cash advance loan unsecured debt.
The simplest way to avoid a new payday loan Which has a
[url=http://pozyczkidlazadluzonych.org.pl]pożyczki dla zadłużonych[/url]

Step one that you should get to receive because of pay day loan arrears will be phone a skilled cash advance loan consolidator as soon as possible. These lenders and even people often have the abilities wanted to bargain as a representative in order to get a fabulous much lower level. A lot of payday loans loan companies realise that they might do not find any one his or her money back when they are certainly not additional lenient on the subject of interest levels. Sometimes, the interest costs on the bank loan can be utterly cut whilst only the principle bank loan has to be repaid.
[url=http://pozyczka-przez-internet.net.pl]pozyczka-przez-internet.net.pl[/url]

Those who include several fast payday loans for you to diverse corporations, this can be a remarkably important characteristic as it is going to reduce the bill impediment much. Furthermore, any payday loan consolidator will in most cases take care of the particular personal loan to be able to begin all the merging in your repayment with them.
Ridding yourself of a payday cash loan simply by Preserving
[url=http://pozyczka-przez-internet.net.pl]chwilówki urzędnicza kraków[/url]

The next measure necessary step in doing away with pay day loan financial debt could be to implement a number of substantial introspective spirit hunting concerning your spending routines. There are a lot associated with the explanation why you may well be during payday loans debt, nevertheless too much taking is usually a massive produce designed for issue. In case you are going out to restaurants, it does not matter the simplest way cheap, you will are usually having to pay excess amount. You need to understand how to remove a payday loan, you want to first learn to make big savings.
[url=http://pozyczka-przez-internet.net.pl]pożyczka przez internet[/url]

That you can do this specific by visiting a food market so that they can pack all of your foods really needs. Purchase mainly the requirements, for instance breads, ovum, fresh fruits, and vegetables, to avoid other sodas or even food that might be risky for one's spending budget. Implementing coupon codes will also be yet another strategy for conserving money useful as a way to completely pay down your personal loans more speedily.
[url=http://pozyczkagotowkowa24.net.pl]pożyczki bez bik i zaświadczeń[/url]

Last of all, endeavor to slice out all of the activities you ought to buy through the 4 weeks. It could result in most people quit having a drink, keep clear of cinemas, or even some other particular delight which can be being anyone revenue. It really is time for it to create sacrifices when getting a person's payday cash advance debts looked after promptly.
[url=http://chwilowki-bez-bik.net.pl]pożyczka prywatna z komornikiem[/url]

Salut Mes Zamis Sak Passe!

Wassup Folkz this is me Kyon Saucier also known as Mr Kyon on A4A or Creole Elf on BGC.... Aww come on now like none of y'all are ever on those sites, yeah you are 'cause I've seen you... LOL!

Enter my world for a second... What? Huh? Well yes there are Black People in the NW and yes we have a vibrant culture up here. I mean naw Seattle aint Atlanta or NYC or DC or Chicago or any other city with a huge Black Population, but it's my home and there are few places as beautiful... Not too mention in all of the NW Seattle and Tacoma have the highest Black Population. So come on enter the world of Kyon....Yon Yon Yon.... Sigh. I was trying to make an echo sound. Now look I I know I got some typos and things so be patient with me folkz.... Cause I get excited when I write... Okay there is no excuse 'cept that it's my page I do what I want! *smile*


C'EST MOI! IT'S ME!

C'EST MOI!  IT'S ME!
Sak Passe? WAZZUUUUUPPPPP!

Bishop

Bishop
Yeah when I was younger I could've been considered a geek. Always my eyes fixed upon a world none could see. Always seeking to escape from the mundane things of this life.

But a geek I think of as dreamer, someone one who delights in things outside of the ordinary.

Just Me Again

Just Me Again
And why not? Dreams were not meant for the sleeping times

For the ordinary world need not be such a boring place. There's always more than enough room for the things that make one smile.

Wolf Rider

Wolf Rider
Bear Claw

Blood Elven Prince

Blood Elven Prince
Worlds within worlds

Drow Hunting Party

Drow Hunting Party
Dark Elven Elegance

Adieu mes zamis....

Adieu mes zamis....
May the light of Elves shine upon you....I know it's corny but this is my page!