Well I have been quiety as of late and I will be for ahwile untilk things right themselves. You see I lost my job recently and I have just fallen into a great depression. I feel so tired. I feel like Elis De Vries nee Rachel Stein in Zwaart Boek when she finds out that Muntze has just been executed by those Nazi Schlopfs and she screams:

MY GOD WILL IT EVER END!!??? Ouais, juste comme ca. I feel just like that. Since October the 19 I have lost my home and boyfirend all at once. In loosing Trumph I have also lost Bumpalump, I haven't seen him since late Oct. So all at once I lost my family and home. Moved in with others, finally got a place in Dec, just rebuilding and now this happens!!! MY GOD WILL IT EVER END!!???

I need a break. I meed to not have this stress, I need to be able to breath and just have things go right for me. And it is so hard now, and I am not whining I am just feeling so low. Valentine's Day is approaching and never have I felt more alone than now. This season has just been much too long and I wish it to be over. This season of ill luck and break ups and new beginings or endings or whatever the fuck you wanna call it. I want just something good to happen. Can something good just happen? Please tell me God when will it all end?