Solé ft. Tamar - 4 The Love of You

Chaka Khan - You Can Make The Story Right

Chaka Khan - A Woman In a Man's World

Chaka Khan - Sleep On It

If we can sleep on it, a classic and a keeper. I love Chaka!!!

Bishop Carlton Pearson: He Defends Bishop Eddie Long and Claims GAYS wil...

Check this out guys I agree my take on the Bishop Eddie Long Scandal.

Bonjouy et sak passe i know long time no see. Well school has started and I am in thus I have access again more fully to a comp and I am relishing it. Classes look like they will be good I am ready. I trun 33 on the 10th of October and I am awaiting that. I am seeing Mr W still and while I am falling for him he has some small issues and in truth I still have feelings for Trumph. Not sure what to do with all this I am just going to ride it out wait and see. Plus this is the start of my busy season so who knows.In the meantime I have to address this scndal with this man who unfortunately has been caught up in something not so cute. Well I have to say this I am not going to throw stones at him, I do beleive he is probably a homo, and I feel sad for him that he has been forced into this corner, though he made his choices and must thus follow the consequences. However the man who has the most problems with gay men and gay sex usually wants to have what? Right lots of GAY SEX. Nuff said.
Check this out a vid I have for you on the subject following this post.
Doctors give good repoerts though I do have a bit of a sore throat that Mr. W gave me but overall I am well. I hope this finds you well and at peace. Be blessed everyone et adieu.

Britney Spears - Trouble

I still love this song and I know it is Brit but I can't help it.

( Fantasia "Back To ME" 2010) Fantaisa I'm Doing Me

I am really feeling this song

Michael Jackson Birthday Party in BK

Yet another reason why I need to move out of Seattle!

Kanye West Feat. Beyonce & Charlie Wilson - See Me Now [CDQ] + DIRECT DO...

Will Smith- SUMMERTIME (PARODY)

FINAL GUEST CONFIRMED! The Oprah Winfrey Show FINAL SEASON 25: (MUST SEE)

Anthony ur crazy for this! But I love it and I love u!

I am not sure exactly what it is but something about the end of the summer makes me sad. Even a summer as tumultuos as this one has been for me. I can think of worse things I have experienced in my life but this summer has been one that has really tested me mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically with all that has gone on. Some of which has been because of the choices I made for good or ill I now deal with the consequences. First off my health is great. Infact people have been saying I look really good andI feel pretty good, which I find ironic but okay I aint trying to rock that boat at all. Life has been interesting lately, home is okay, I'm loving my big oom so much more than the last hovel I was trapped in, morel ike a hole really. Well I kinda don't like one of my rommies, he's a passive agressive lil bitch but hey what do ya do. Mais vraiment li se un bete idiot, tu konne?
I have a new freidn at the house a kitten named Leo. He is actually very cute even if he does cry all the time. He likes to curl up nmext to me on the chair in the apartment and sleep next to me, he lets me pet him and he is always trying to get up in my room. SO is his mother Jade. They find me bed to be most comfortable. I don't want the fleas I suspect they have in my bed though. I really didn't have a pet growing up so this is kool however I am a lil worried at time about toxiplasmoids? So I suppose I shall have to ask my dokte about that. I am about to start school and also hoepfully get a job because well unemployment does not last forever.
I am ready to work again at a crappy job to help further my goald since this job this time really will just be a means to an end, and this time it really will be. In the meantime I am finding people to be very supportive of me and my new condition and to be honest it is as if for the first time I am really really loving life. I used to say things like God I hate my life. I used to say that alot but now I don't. I mean I have always known I am mortal, that is was nevera question of if I would die but merely when, however this makes my mortalilty seem so much more pressing and not in a bad way, just in way that says hey appreciate this day. Appreciate this breath, savor this experience. And I am. This is not to say in anyway that my life is perfect or anything or that i am perfect it just that I feel more grateful about things and in some ways less willing to deal with the dumb shit, but also not really sweating the small shit either. I dunno perhaps it also maturing. My 33rd birthday will be here soon and I really want to celebrate but I dunno know how. I dunno I wanna have a big party but reality says I dunno how that will happen. So probably I will just maybe celebrate by myself. Because I have come this far and why the hell not!!!
Also a certain person is coming to see me next month and I can't wait fopr that eityher. And this year before it ends I am going to go somewhere that I want to go,. For real! Bien c'est tous mes zamis, soyez bon! Adieu!

So today I had a meeting with my case manager and we talked about insurance and medical forms and wiavers and copnsent forms and all kinds of stuff and it was actually really good. Number one it was good becaue case managing will mostl ikely be part of a career I choose and I am seeing it in action albeit it is on my behalf. Also it means that I am still staying on top of this thing. So in that respect all is well. I ma waiting on a check that should've been here yesterday is not yet here. It better be here today. I need money I've got to go grocery shopping and I think I'm going to buy a pair of clippers too. I mean I shave my head bald and why szreally should I pay people to do what I capable of doing. Plus I have started like doing a little body scaping of my chest area and I dunno I like it so yeah...Imma just get some clippers. I am slowly coming to realize more and morethatI will be aiight. I have alot of support in the works and I have folkz around me who care so I mma be okay. At any rate photos of me! Because I am vain! Okay. Be blessed and peace y'all Adieu!

Life goes by slowly these days, well not really but perhaps colored by my experience of adjustment to my house in virignie, I am thinking that I am actually living life more and to the fullest. I experience it more than I hever think I have. So every moment is now trully precious. On one hand that's cool and on the other hand it isn't soo kool. I would rather not have this new experience to navigate. Still I am well and health is good so I am not complaining and I am adjusting, if that can be said as well as I can to this new thing. Even if I hate it. As for Gogo...Well The last thing I heard from him was him asking me never to speak to our mutual friend again....It was perhaps a lie, but I don't care now. He has taken everything tfrom me that he could and I see him now for what he chooses to be...And I have cut off communication from him. It's a hard thing all this because I feel like I have all this rage and anger and unsaid things that I want to just lash at him with but in the end I beleive it is for the best. It does no good and it certainly won't change things or benefit anyone. Not even me. Forgiveness it is not an weasy thing to choose or to walk in but once you do so, you just do it. Nuff said.
I have a new phone an I like it. First of all it does not look so ancient, secondly the plan is much cheaper than before and I like it. It's a cheap Blackberri but whatever when it comes to ophones I'm not all gadgety like that. Of course though it's great to be reconnected and slowly but surely everything the cancerworm has taken is being resotred to me. God has blessed me so much during this time and it is to him that I have found most of my peace and refuge.
Since I ahve been back I have been kinda dating. Though I don't have a boyfirend per se as much as I have suitors. One of them Mr. W
is an old piece and we are enjoying each other's company at the moment. The other is Trumph. And finally there is Soldat who lives in MO, right now but who has my attn. If for no other reason than he is not from this part of the country and plus he is charming thus far. But no serious commitments yet. I am simply not ready for that, the only person I would be ready for that would be Trumph and he still needs to be single or so he says but as of late who knows.
The world tells me still that he loves me and is still in love with me and he shows me such in little ways... I have forgiven him for the past and I could and would be willing to try it again. After all he told me we technically are not together but untechnically we are. I have no idea what that tmeans but somehow he is staking some claim to me still.
Boiz!!
I am sinply enjoying mu summer, went to a lil BBQ this weekend, hung out with MR. W, went to Twisted in Everett and just enjoyed life. Oh an last night I kikced it hard. I have to work on my alcohol intake by the way. I can't be doing too much otherwise I will hurt myself. But these days I feel fine. Still I suppose the better care I take the better I will be. OH it's just so frustrating at tiems to have to deal with this. It's like it goes away when I don't thin about it but it is so important I can't just ignore it or wish it away and it just surfaces as an issue at the worst times!! LIKE ALWAYS! ANd it is in those moment when my forgivnemss is tested and when I want to lash out and hurt others. ANd I can't, because I know how wrong it would be to do...SO I don't.
As usual I am what I am just a bubbling caudron of emotions. PH BTW JOMO MY MOTHER KNOWS NOW! Blab nothing else. Just had to let you know so you didn't do it at some inoppurtune time. So here I am. I am doing well and I living and growing. And I beleive when all is said and done I will be okay.

I shall have a nice post for you guys tomorrow, as I ahve decided that someone may be albe to learn from me as I go through this...Process. So there ya go talk to y'all on the morrow. On the other hand who says I can't talk now. The week has been so far cool. New place is nice, I like it. Well naw lemme just give y'all all an update tomorrow hopefully I can do it online via a web cam than via the written.

Jordin Sparks: Walking On Snow

Jordin Sparks: Emergency (911)

Jordin Sparks: Was I The Only One

Watch You Go - Jordin Sparks (w/Lyrics)

So this is a great song and Ms. Sparks has kinda been helping me heal basically so Imma post osme of her stuff on my blog hope you like. This CD is much better htan the old one